I always feel awkward when I am invited to dinner by a couple. This feeling of only being a half is more pronounced. But I am outgoing and I accept. The conversation can be one sided at times, or strained. After a while I give lame excuses not to accept.
It is not the lack of trying to find a partner, but… age is a factor. For a long time my partner was older and had an obligation to his family. The family did not want a new step-mama, they were in their 30s. To keep peace I chose it to let it stay stagnant. When he moved on to another dimension, I stopped looking all together.
So, here I am waking up to the reality that in my golden age there is only going to be me! But, I’m still venturing on….